a week of _______

how should i put it?
the world is full of surprises and sometimes things just dont go the way you want it to
this week has been tired for me
many things left me disappointed
friends, family and even TV dramas
okay, that wasnt really part of it, but im just trying to feel happy about it
when talking to a group of more than 40 people,
you want their attention, but just looking at less than 10 people looking up to you feels ...
disappointed, and trying your best means nothing
it used to mean something, but now the meaning it holds is just disappearing
the meaning isnt there anymore and no one but yourself is trying
it takes more than one hand to clap
scolding all the way, for little things
easter convention ytd, and it was written 'do you love me'
LOVE HURTS as the preacher said.
and it really does, why cant they just understand what you're going through
what we're going through now is what THEY were going through 30 years ago,
isnt it? im sure it is,
i cant be bothered to type
im just too tired
not physically but tired just by thinking about the things that have revolved around me this week
friends turn their backs on you and only to find they dont mean it
tmr's the evangelistic tea party, so i'll have more things to keep me occupied
i hope everything goes well tonight and that there will be no chaos
cause i dont even know if i have the strenght to face it.
well , signing off