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more papers today
one word
DISASTER
geog: FAIL
SOVA:pass on th spot
hist: FAIL
OMG.
like i keep tellingmyself its okay, work hard for SA2
but will that even work
sometimes im just studying everything
then i got scolding
like all my friends did well
especially all my other classes friends
like they all got better than me
like ALL of them
): im such a failure
like idont feel the least comforted when friends ask
they just ASK ASK ASK ASK ASK
so much for respecting privacy!
today for example, after checking scrips, charpersons had to get classes into groups of 7
then points would be given to classes that did it the fastest and submitted the paper
then i was one of the last, most people were like : HURRY UP CLARA! QUICK!!
LIKE THE POINTS ARE SO IMPORTANT
im like damn pissed. spoil my mood can.
then whats more is that they dont get it
2/3 is smart but im not.
how did i end up there?!
seriously , i wonder. so what if yall get a lot higher than me
you can comfort me and not rub into it right.
i almost cried today when mel pushed me and then like say its too late to join the group and stuff
cause iwas trying to do like 5 things at one time and no one was responding to me
i was damn angry but then no use what, like getting angry can make me feel better
so...yeah, i talked to her again.
i just really hope that everything goes alright tmr.
maths and lit are my stronger subjects so i'll pray!